“I have had dreams, and I’ve had nightmares. I overcame the nightmares because of my dreams.” – Jonas Salk

Having big dreams is not wrong, nor their shattering is. What actually unfortunate is the shattering of a person when s/he is no more able to dream big, when s/he is totally hopeless with life, when s/he is unable to search the rainbow behind those dark clouds.

The suicide of Sushant Singh Rajput has come as a big shock to all of us. Sushant – a handsome, intelligent, vibrant, multi-talented man – had aspirations to reach for the skies.

Sushant with his infectious smile Courtesy: Twitter/@itsSSR

Sushant was not my favourite actor nor have I watched all of his films. But don’t know why I feel this pain of him leaving the world. And like me, people all over the country are experiencing this pain.

My friends and I are often talking about his smiling face. At times, I feel horrible imagining his mental condition, the loneliness he had been going through, the pain of rejection he was bearing since last few years. The more I try to divert my attention from him, the more I chance upon getting his videos or news on social media platforms. Even while writing this blog also, I got this video of him, which completely shows how full of life and down-to-earth he was. He was undoubtedly a self-made actor.

The sudden demise of this super talented, young man, who had a long list of things to be achieved, is absolutely an unbelievable thing.

The long list of his dreams Courtesy: Google

There are reports all over the media about him dealing with depression, which is being seen as the main reason behind his extreme step. As per some reports, he was boycotted by almost all big banners and was ousted from many projects. This might be the main cause of him going into depression and eventually taking his life. Failed relationships can also be a factor. He was in so much of pain and pressure yet he did not let people know what he was going through because of his introvert nature. He must have shared his problems with his loved ones but seems like that too could not help him get out of it.

The prevalent nepotism in Bollywood is being blamed for his suicide. This nepotism is everywhere, in every field. There is nothing surprising or new about it. People having big links are given preferences, irrespective of not having considerable talent; whereas deserving people continue to struggle. Few are lucky who make it in the industry, rest either switch to other professions or leave this world in frustration born out of constant rejections.

But the way these Bollywood mafias were hell-bent on destroying Sushant’s career speaks volumes about their arrogant, egoistic and sadistic behaviour. A bright person like him, who had made a mark on small as well as big screen only on the basis of his extraordinary talent and hard work, would have never imagined such kind of ruthlessness on these Bollywood sharks’ part. He was not at all a threat to anyone not even to those privileged star kids who are still here without any talent or acting skills, all thanks to their strong family/political backgrounds. As it is always said, behind this glittering, glamorous world of Bollywood lies a dark, gloomy reality where the dreams and hopes of many people like Sushant get crushed every day.

These are few meaningful dialogues from his last movie, Chhichhore.

हम हार जीत, सक्सेस फेलियर में इतना उलझ गए हैं…
कि ज़िन्दगी जीना भूल गए हैं।
ज़िन्दगी में अगर कुछ सबसे ज़्यादा इम्पोर्टेन्ट है…
तो वो है ख़ुद ज़िन्दगी।

सक्सेस के बाद का प्लान सबके पास है…
लेकिन अगर गलती से फ़ैल हो गए…
तो फेलियर से कैसे डील करना है…
इसकी कोई बात ही नहीं करना चाहता।

दूसरों से हार के लूज़र कहलाने से
कहीं ज्यादा बुरा है…
खुद से हार के लूज़र कहलाना।
तुम्हारा रिज़ल्ट डिसाइड नहीं करता है…
कि तुम लूज़र हो कि नहीं…
तुम्हारी कोशिश तय करती है।

This blog is my humble tribute to Sushant who in his very short lifetime left an indelible mark of his outstanding work, intelligence and generous nature.

I still cannot get over with his untimely, unjustified worldly departure; I never will. These following lines absolutely define you, Sushant.

“They laugh at me because I’m different; I laugh at them because they’re all the same.” – Kurt Cobain

Stay happy wherever you are.

Om Shanti!!

Edit: Now-a-days, so many theories are cropping up on Sushant’s death from suicide to planned murder. Whatever it is, truth must come out so that he and his family get justice.